Our principal cellist has to take half the season off to let her shoulder heal after surgery. As second chair, I should be principal, right? Well, there are some other members of the section I could see promoted over me because they are really strong players. That’s fair. But the one he picked? Missed half of last season, wasn’t at half of the rehearsals from the half she was in, and got called out for dress code violations at concerts. And she’s not one of the people I consider a stronger player than me.
I haven’t missed a rehearsal in two seasons. I am prepared at rehearsals, usually more so than our principal. I am just stunned by this.
On the other hand, I am sad for my friend, and Thing 1’s cello teacher, that she is out for a while. I wish she had told me what was going on. I feel guilty for feeling this way when she is in obvious pain.
But still. Gobsmacked.
This is now a disturbing trend in my life. I think I need to take some more stock and see how I am contributing to this.